Never on the same page

According to the Stars, Capricorn (me) & Virgo are the ideal match. However, put me in a room with one, watch me develop feelings, read too much into everything - then watch me crumble! I fall for them hard, and they let me down. Come to think of it, all men have let me down - some way or another. Join me on my search for Mr Right. Let's examine past almost mr rights (AMR) and see if there is a common factor there. Feel free to share your stories too :-)
Let's travel back to a time long ago. There was a guy named Charlie, the Lawyer. Smart, funny & tall, dark and handome. The night we met (we'd spoken for years online prior) started hot and heavy. I woke up with the biggest hangover, being spooned by him - there wasn't the feeling of where am i? what have i done? Though this was my first time I'd been with a guy like this, it felt right. Comfortable.
After months of seeing each other, dinners, movies, drinks etc We'd always end the night making out and steaming things up. One night in the midst of literally steaming up the windows in his car, he asks "where is this going?". I was so shy and didn't think I was ready. So my response was the buzz killer "can't we keep it like this?"... Obviously not. I didn't see him for a year.
Skip past the drunken hook ups and regrets, Lawyer was still on my mind. I make contact and arrange a date - he says "sure". We meet and I tell him I am ready. He tells me he likes me, but isn't ready and would like to keep it casual. I say I understand and that I am looking for "something more" - I leave, and understand why they call a crush, a crush.
Hop and a skip to a few months later, I came the conclusion that if he wants casual, I'll go casual - atleast I get to see him. So I make contact again and this time I get a totally unexpected response... "I'm seeing someone...". I wish him all the best and say goodbye. Yet, to this day, he remains in my heart.