Dash did 2010

Well. My sister flatmate deleted me off Facebook. Insulted much!? Also found a Christmas card on the bench with my name on it... had no idea I'd received it! That's okay - I'll be gone in three months. I admit living arrangment/conditions have very little to be desired, but it's a roof. The last few months I have grown more than I ( could have imagined. I have also gained a new found direction that is oh so solid. No one can shake this kid.

Had a Diet Coke and two Cadbury "Rose" chocolates for breakfast this morning - so fucking healthy ;-) All the while, thinking about "The Farmer" - thinking "Why is he always on my mind!" It's not a bad thing - just... come on Dashy!! There are so many other things to think of.

Lunch was half a Chicken and a Bread Roll... Wolfed that down in 15 minutes - Guts!

Here it is. The wrap up. The scattered wrap up - who am I kidding!? It wouldn't be a Dashy Blog otherwise!

January - Started with a bang! Scored the lead role in a low budget feature film - to be shot in Cuba! Got the script, signed the contracts, rehearsed my arse off. This was my big break.
February - Kept on rehearsing, thinking "Wow! No more unpaid short films... I'm going to get paid for something I love". I quit my job at the gym.
March - Kicked me in the guts. The film funding falls through & find out the director did a dodgy! Fuck! No day job... Atleast I have the bar work to go back to.
April - Spent that month working at the bar and at a xxx adult store (reception.. ) April I felt pretty sorry for myself. "Oh woe is me"
May - I land a job as a Barrista in a new cafe. Two weeks later, after many empty promises. I resign.
June - I put pen to paper again, and begin writing out thoughts, poems, lyrics
July - Was a very taxing month emotionally. The last six months had built to this. Ending contact with "The Crush". On the plus side, I reunite with two very dear friends. One who now has a gorgeous little girl. The other who was finally moving on and up in her career and life! Was great to see them again.
August - Time to get serious. I register my songwriting label "Son of Lou". And start pumping out some amazing lyrics.
September - Start working at a new gym and start recording.
October - Get taken out to dinner with the amazing new gym crew I work with. Concentrate on music, me and work.
November - Competed in a charity fun run and came First Place. I can't explain that feeling of winning. I hadn't won anything in such a long time. My time to shine has begun again. Aint no stopping Dash! Get taken to the movies with gym crew.
December - Go Ten Pin Bowling with gym crew. Have an incredible time bonding with the team outside of work. Finally purchased a cell phone. I travel interstate. I have my first gig. I meet new wonderful people. I found an old lyric pad from earlier on, and realized why I am here on Earth. Planned and designed my new tattoo. Started my new Vision Board while eating the other half of my chicken.

A little wrap up, of the year that seemed to drag on.


More randomness.

*Hearing the music on an old video game almost made me sick to the stomach. It brought back so many memories. I only ever played it when I was in trouble, or when the parents fought.

Muse~You are all kinds of wonderful.
There's a glow that surrounds you, illuminates you.
You're my new found inspiration.
The very thought of you motivates me.
You put the stars in my eyes.
You make my spirits soar.
All I want to do is sing for you.
Just a Silly Little Love Song.
Guitar across my knee, picking out a melody.
I want to be the one.
Tell me, I'm the one.~
A wave of inspiration poured over, and out of me, onto page, after page of lyrical gold. Flowing like honey.

Maybe it's the No-Doze?
Maybe it's the 8 hours sleep I got?
Maybe it's life?
Whatever it is.... I feel fantastic.. LIFE IS FUCKING AMAZING

Thank you for reading and supporting me throughout 2010 - I hope to do the same for you, one way or another in 2011

Have a SAFE, HAPPY, ABUNDANT New Year - May you get what you truly want :-)

This is Dash xoxo

Dash does Christmas

I found this in my phone. Obviously written before Christmas. While I sit here watching Vin Deisel in XXX and eating Chicken Shapes, I am typing up old notes I have saved either on scrap paper, or in my phone.

-The city is a hive of activity. You can feel the anticipation. The sun, and spirits are high. People are balancing a coffee and countless bags, overflowing with wrapping paper, ribbons and tinsel. I can almost see your heart beating from your chest. Two more sleeps I hear the child squeal with delight and an unwaivering belief of what's to.. who's to come.
Then came Christmas day. I woke up early as usual. Travelled two hours up to my parents place. It was great to see my brothers and sisters again, and of course, the folks. After eating double my weight in seafood, ham, turkey and pavlova - I fell asleep. Another tradition. Later that evening I had to travel the two hours back to the city to work at the bar. What a night that was!

I met a woman, who through the awesomness of the Universe - I have met briefly before.. on two other occassion - AND we work for the same company! Maria is a gorgeous person. Absolutly stunning. I had a drink with her and her friends. She also tried to hook me up with her "hot gay cousin". Me being me automatically hears hot, and I go into a shell thinkinh I am not worthy - but that is bullshit! I am worthy. I am hot. Anyhow, that was a fabulous Christmas.

Man, Vin Deisel. Woah.

Today I played an awesome acoustic version of a Destinys Child song. I mashed up Bootylicious and Crazy in Love. Definatly have to record this.
-Dash xoxo

Dash gets over three Virgos

Temptation of typing in an ex friend or crushs name into Google or to Facebook is very testing, but gets easier. The 'need' to know what they are up too, who they are seeing, or how romantic their beach holiday looks, fades. Soon you wont care. You'll have grown, seen that they weren't suitable for you, and never will be. You will wonder what you ever saw in them. You stand back and realize that they are quite ugly. It's amazing how being so horrid & selfish strips away any external beauty. You realize that the affection shown was to benefit them, and only kept you at arms length. That's okay though. Why? Beacuse you've learnt the signs of a player. You've had wine, after wine with friends. Cried a bucket of tears. You've read self help books [thanks Sam Brett]. You know to not chase them, but to let them 'chase' after you. If they want you, and are truly into you, they will Show you! Actions speak so much louder than words. Fucking old saying, but as true, as the sun rises. Most importantly, you respect yourself. Love yourself, who you are. You can take time with friends, and yourself - and not think about the person that caused you grief. You are a beautiful.. and worthy person who deserves love. Tell yourself "I am worthy". Believe it. I have faith in you.
-Dash xoxo

Dash got bored

Miss Love inspired me to post a few random facts about myself. EL gave me the tools to use.. Enjoy..

 THREE WAYS I AM STILL A KID
1. I believe everything is possible. 2. I draw on everything.  3.  I get excited over the smallest things.

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD
1. I cringe at the way younger people talk. 2. I think about the past too much. 3. I prefer nights in.

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO
1. Finish recording my EP  2. Move to Sydney 3.   Travel the world alone. 

THREE WAYS THAT I’M A STEREOTYPICAL “BOY”
1. I am messy. 2. Sometimes I grunt to communicate. 3. I act like I don't hurt, when I actually am.

THREE WAYS THAT I’M A STEREOTYPICAL “GIRL”
1.  2.  3.

THREE NEW THINGS I WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Learn to drive officially (maybe) 2. Live on a property  3. Rock Climbing (outdoor)

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MYSELF
1. Modesty 2. Honesty 3. Funny

THREE THINGS I STRONGLY DISLIKE ABOUT MYSELF
1. Modesty 2. Honesty  3. Impatient

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
1. Liars  2. Frogs 3. Aggression

THREE OF MY EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS
1. Pad & Pen  2. Laptop  3. Guitar

THREE CHARACTERISTICS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX (OR SAME) THAT APPEAL TO ME
1. Kindness 2. Honesty 3. Knows how to communicate

THREE THINGS I JUST CAN’T DO
1. Give up integrity  2. Walk past a pet store without wanting to take them home. 3. See others go without

THREE CAREERS I’M CONSIDERING
1. Jackeroo  2.  Army(Soldier) 3. Open up a cafe

-Dash xoxo

Oh yeah. I am in a much better mood. Thank you x

Dash & Charlie, the Lawyer pt II

Excuse me while I bury my head into the pillow and cry. Man, this time of night always gets to me. Probably doesn't help that it is a Full Moon.
Am having an absolute wretched night. First an innoceant conversation turns into my non exsistant sex life and that I need to "slut it up".
Then I get a message from Charlie, the Lawyer. I honestly don't know why he messaged me. What was I expecting? Him to say he left his partner and wanted to be with me..?
Why oh why. I should not have responded. Brought up the feelings I had.. have. Why was I such a wanker. Arghh.
Fuck Fuck Fuck.
-D

Dash & The Farmer Pt II and III

I can't believe I haven't written about this. I emailled The Farmer. He responded saying lovely things. Then I sent another afew days ago, and within 5 minutes he'd responded.
The Farmer melts my heart.
-Dash xoxo

Dashs' Pash

It's almost time to wrap up the year. Almost. Perhaps I will write my wrap on New Years Eve, while I sit in my room with a glass... or a bottle of Red.
I was just having a "conversation" online with someone who is incredibly boring. I didn't think he could get more dull. Wrong Dash. Wrong. Just deleted his number, and his contact off Facebook... and then bit the bullet and deleted all ex dates and frustrating people.
On a postive note. I was asked out on Thursday by a very handsome Carribean man. Tall, educated, travelled, funny. So I went out to coffee the following day with him.. conversation flowed - then stopped dead, when he asked "Are you austistic". I was shocked, laughed a little and said No. After that, I still agreed to see him again. Though, I am unsure as he is going back overseas.
That night I had a Christmas function. Wine became my vice, and by 1.30AM we were all getting into cars to leave. On the way home we stopped into a petrol station. When the driver went in to pay - the "straight" co worker in the back of the car pashed me and kept insisting I go back to his house - I declined. For the rest of the trip I had to slap his octopus hands. Now, of course he doesn't remember - which is a blessing.
Saturday was a blur of hangover, flights interstate and singing.
Sunday was a family gathering which lead to many revelations of Pop spraying weed killer over an Uncles Marajuana stash when he was younger because he "thought they were weeds". And a very old (94) Aunt admitting she makes Salvia tea, and sometimes goes into the garden to eat the [salvia] flowers! Old tripper! That explains a few things!
Now it's time to start sorting out what I want to keep in this room for 2011. In a few months I want to be left with the bare minimum!
More dates before New Year... will keep you posted.
-Dash xoxo

Dash & Emo Penne

As what happened, just really happened.
I got emotional over food - a meal that I now can't eat.
As I went to take a bite of my delicious home made pumpkin penne pasta, I had flashbacks of when I used to cook this (among other dishes) for The Crush. As if I can't eat this now...

-Dash xoxo

Old Shoes, Oreos, & Dashs' Scattered Mind...

Feeling abit thrown. I've been sitting here for the last 20 minutes staring at a blank screen, gone through a box of Oreos', trying to think of how to write what I want to say. There is so much, and none of it relelvent to each other. Random thoughts I have had scribbled down on scrap paper.

-I didn't realize it at the time, but the reason I was in such a fucking mood yesterday was because my dad tried to contact me. Issues. How irritating.

-I was at the gym this morning at 5.30AM feeling good. When I finished, I was sitting at the bus stop looking down at the pavement and started thinking.  Right now, I may not have the best, or the newest things. But I am so thankful for them. My shoes may be old and tatty, but they are my old and tatty shoes. My clothes may not be the latest, but they keep me warm. I might be renting a small room, but I am safe from the weather. I am thankful I have somewhere to sleep at night. I thank God every day.
-You're a nice guy... but boring. I need to be stimulated. In every sense.

-I think manners are foreign to some locals.

-Bless my Asian run, Indian take out joint. They ran out of Naan bread, so served me fried rice and also stayed open 30 minutes past closing for me. Thank you!

-Saw the sexiest tat guy at Maccas.

That will do for now. I am tired and will write more later.

Love is beautiful
-Dash xoxo

Bromance = Bullshit!

"Bromance".... is bullshit. You are gay, just admit it.
It's not that I want you, it's just I want you to admit you are gay :-) You'll be so much happier.

-dash xoxo

Dashs' Midnight Anxiety

Midnight just hit. I think it's a combination of tired, and hungover. I'm in a really bizare mood. I'm not sad, not happy - slightly confused, abit anxious.
I would like to move to Sydney. Then again, I'd like to move to London. I could spend a year in Sydney, then hit London.
I could do alot of things - I can do anything.
-Dash xoxo

Dash & Dolly Parton (kind of)

Friday Morning - rehearsed, and started on some new lyrics :-)
Caught up with two friends i hadn't seen in too long. Got incredibly emotional. I was sitting there with them just thinking how much of a bad friend i have been. Rather than wallow on, I will just say I had a cry with them - got a few things aired over some amazing wine and tapas, and i will - i promise - to be a better friend. Afterall, i do love these two women with all my heart, just have to show it more.
Later that night at work - cheap drinks and loose boys and girls ripping up the dance floor. once i close the bar, i decided it was Dashs turn to have a drink. So I did. I ran into Mr Shy. We hugged. He has such smiling eyes. We went our seperate ways. Myself and MsV watched a Drag Show - it was great. MsV looked at me and said "I wonder where they put it" I said I was thinking the same thing, and spent a deal of the show looking in the performers "areas". Afew more drinks and photos. I met some great people that night too. One who really stands out was Greg. He comes bounding up to me, kisses me on the cheek and says "I'm Greg and I'm 18, how old are you?" I tell him 28, his response had me in hysterics! "oh my God, you're so cute for an old person!" I laughed so hard, I cried! Next thing I knew, I was back to Mr Shys house and we made out. Dash! What happened to goodbye?

Saturday. Oh Saturday. What a massive day/night!
la di da di da.. then went to the afterparty for an event. When that wrapped up, I text MsV and told her I was on my way to the club. Once I arrived, lined a few drinks up, then got them down! Absolutly tore up the d-floor. As I was dancing, I saw a man in a kilt, and a woman in a red latex skirt (ew) and if that skirt wasn't gross enough, what I witnessed next was so dirty that I am even questioning putting it in here. But that would be cruel, so I will just cum (pun intended) out and say it. He was fucking her from behind, while fingering her lady garden! THEN! I noticed her legs were all wet. Get a fucking room! That venue closed, so MsV and I decided to crank some karaoke. oh Lord, why!? Of course we bee lined it straight for the bar, lined up shots of tequilla. Sucked those down, and got on stage. Now, I must point out, that attempting Dolly Partons "9-5" intoxicated - is not a good idea! I muddled the words and this is what I sang [tumbled outta bed n stumbled to the keetchen, pulled myself...] With a roar of laughter from the crowd and applause, we kept going. That is until we must have seen something shiney, We walked off stage and to the bar. Champagne anyone? Don't mind if I do! After being "escorted" from that venue (for taking MsV into the male restroom - oops) I tumbled out of that bar, and stumbled to the park [did you like my play on words? pretty funny aren't i]. MEANWHILE, MsV has lost her camera, can't find her house keys, so decided to break in - and break in she did! MsV fell right through the ceilling! thankfully, no injuries!... While MsV is leaving three metre holes in her ceilling, Dash opens his eyes at 9.30 Sunday morning and is being woken up by paramedics after passing out in the Rotunda! Oops! I found a gas station, bought a Snickers (actually 3) and waited for a cab. Crawled into bed at 10 and woke up feeling like death warmed up at 4PM.
Now to watch some TV and get over this self inflicted awesomeness called "The Hangover" while I eat my three Snickers.
-Dash xoxo

Dash in the Studio

LYRICALLY BLESSED                                                                               

What a bloody amazing day! On no sleep I went from my morning job at the gym to the studio.Straight on in (to my surprise) record the demo jingle for a tvc. From that little nugget - back behind the Mic to lay down some vox on a cover song we are working on. I must say.. sounding fucking awesome.
-Dash xoxo