Dashing Back

Welcome back to me. It's been more than two months. Part of me knew I couldn't stay away. I'm a writer. Unsure who I'll share this with now that I no longer have Facebook. Again. This time I have not had it for over two weeks. I guess it had been coming. I was spending far too much time logged into that website, wasting time. I cannot believe that a simple website could be so addictive. Perhaps I am just obsessive. Actually, I am obsessive. Damn it.

Let's go back. Last time we were here, I had just started my new job in the city, I was feeling overwhelmed. That is a bloody good word to describe how I felt. Overwhelmed.

Starting in the city opened my eyes to so much. So much, that I will never change back to how I was before this. I have met some fantastic people through the job. A Drag Queen, a Slashie (actor/singer/dancer/model/reception), a Canadian and a ton of others. So many dancers, actors etc. To them, I am just a receptionist who likes to go out each weekend. And, oh boy! Have I been going out!
Back to meeting people. In the past two or so months. I have had afew guys catch my attention.

We'll start with The Colombian. We met at the gym, went for coffee, afew nights later, dinner. He was sweet as pie. Is sweet as pie. Gorgeous guy. Met his mates. Went on more dinner dates. Then he asked (after two weeks) if I'd be his boyfriend. Old Dash would have said no, but I said yes.
So, Dash has his first boyfriend. Felt so cool to say. Maybe I changed, maybe he changed. I felt the interaction between us grow apart. It all came to a night he asked me to meet him out, but to go out with his mates first. I thought, what the hey. So I went with his mates. Had a great time. Finally met up with him,  he was dancing with guys with their shirts off. Went to say gday and went in for a hug and a kiss - and he didn't reciprocate, just kind of pushed me away. That, with a mixture of Sambucca and Tequilla pushed me over the edge. I walked out of the club. Like a tosser - crying. Colombians friends followed me out and said Goodnight and not to worry. I walked home, sent a text thanking him for the fun nights we've had and goodbye. Over the next few days I sent a few more upset texts. And realised it definatly was a goodbye.

Later on, well two weeks ago I was out with The Colombians friends (they are good people). So there we were having a fucking ball, carving up the dance floor like maniacs, when I spy this Handsome Man up on the next level. I recognised him from the gym and knew he had a partner. Noticing he was there alone, I went up to say Gday. Got to chatting with him, discovered he is actually single. Learnt so much about him, well - alot considering we were in a nightclub. Next thing I knew, we were kissing. Then he took me by the hand and danced with me. Being a complete gentleman, he walked me home - me being bolder, invited him in! First for everything hey! Fast forward. He left. I was happy, and went to sleep. Putting it down to a once off, I let it go. He text me the next day! Due to work commitments, we could arrange a time. Then I left the State for a week. He still kept in touch. Friday comes, I step off the plane and there is a text from him welcoming me home and asking me out to dinner and film that night. I said yes. He arrived at 8PM looking so daper in a suit. A kiss and we are off. Throughout dinner he kept his hand on my knee, had wonderful conversation. The film, held my hand & walking to the car held my hand. Stole a kiss in the elevator then held my hand as he drove me home. Dropped me off. Kiss goodnight, and as nice as the night was for me, I think it was a kiss goodbye too. Never mind though. It's only been two days since hearing from him. I will wait for him to text I think. If he doesn't - then I know it was a goodbye. A sweet, perfect goodbye.

So that is what has happened in the man department.

As I mentioned before, I have been going out alot. It has been what I have needed. Getting out to dance, drink, be social, be young. Just have to learn when to stop, so my emotions don't get all stupid. Like they do when I get sleepy.

That's happening now. So.. I will log off. Post more later.

Dash
xoxo