I'm not an emotional eater. I do punish myself with food though - by not eating. I don't know why. Sometimes I feel guilty, or like I shouldn't eat when I have been upset. Almost like I don't deserve to eat. Am I sulking? If I am, what is it about. I haven't left my room today as my housemate is wandering around the flat. I am doing my best to avoid seeing her. I'm bigger than this - What the fuck am I doing? Maybe I'll walk out into the lounge room and passed her and outside for a walk. Attempt to eat something from somewhere?
-Dash xoxo
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hey Dash! confession totally understood. i do the same, and when eventually give in to food i feel like i didnt deserve it and so i punish myself further with exercise. But i also love exercise, often i am confused with what my motives are when im exercising. Its something im working on. However the reason for punishing ones self by not eating is something im still not completely sure about. I mean if we knew exactly why you'd think we'd be smart enough to beat the problem every time. Things are often complicated and arise from previous trauma or childhood issues that are unresolved or repressed memories. We learn coping mechanisms during these times and then repress these reasons but continue the coping skills throughout our life. then we hit mid 20s ot 30s and begin to desire to figure it all out and we're stuck, often with some colalteral damage. If you do ever find the answers pls share. I have many possible answers for why i have developed such coping mechanism.
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